Berating myself endlessly was somewhat drilled into me by my mother and aunts when I was young. It is one thing to knowledge one's faults, another to dwell on them beyond what would be useful in using it to spur yourself to success in the future. It is the LeBlanc way. That and repressing our emotions in favor of putting on a pleasant smile for those that watched us.

[She snorts and sighs.]

Not terribly healthy, or safe, here. Luke and Ben have been most kind and patient with me, and for that I am grateful. They are better friends than I deserve.